...how do you completely change the way you think about yourself after feeling like absolute shit, after feeling worthless for a lifetime?

...hoorary?

st john's roxers my boxers.

that is all.

oh yeah...i logged onto this computer at exactly 4:20. heh heh heh hehehehhehehehehheehheheheheheheheheheheheheh...

:)

yep.
i'm officially cutting myself away from the relationship/dating world.

fuck it. it's not worth it. there aren't an even amount of people in this world. somebody's got to be left alone.

...it might as fucking well be me.

Have you ever seen the movie "Goodfellas"?
You know that scene where Joe Pesci is stabbing the shit out of some guy? He just keeps plunging that knife so much that it looks like he's not taking the knife out at all. He just keeps plunging deeper and deeper until you can swear he's gouging out his heart.











Yeah. It's kind of like that.

the more i say that i'm playing a retarded lion....
...the more excited i get. :D
i'm gonna knock everyone's socks off man!!!
roar!!!!

i'm hanging out with kristen and diedre more and more. i loves them. <3


i wish someone would sing to me...

Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
And I come here to talk
I hope you understand

The green eyes, yeah the spotlight, shines upon you
And how could, anybody, deny you?

I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter now I met you
And honey you should know
That I could never go on without you
Green eyes

Honey you are the sea
Upon which I float
And I came here to talk
I think you should know

The green eyes, you're the one that I wanted to find
And anyone who tried to deny you, must be out of their mind

rest in peace, tourette's guy...

http://mun.facebook.com/group.php?gid=4095049716

:(

you know...i love my friends but sometimes they really piss me off.

I CANT FIND MY FUCKING CAMERA.

IF I LOSE ALL THOSE PICTURES I WILL CRY.

:@

ANDREW IS HERE. :D:D:D:D

god damn it my sound is fucked on my computer. :(((((( god.

yesterday was super fun. i am SO SO SO SO happy that andrew is getting to see where i grew up...i dunno why but it's nice to show him my life kind of. :)
anyways, we went swimming and camping last night and it was fun. we drove in the back of a speeding truck. fucking jon was SPEEDING down the dirt road and doing donuts, with me, andrew and alex lying down in the back screaming our faces off.
dangerous? ya.
stupid? ya.
hilarious? DEFINATELY. :)

we're all hanging out tonight too. IM EXCITE. :D

omgomgomgomg.

ADRIENNE COMES HOME TOMORROW.
ANDREW COMES THE DAY AFTER.
O.
M.
GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe.

speaking of which....andrew...call me as soon as you see this, mmmkay?

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
:D

...my hair is some friggin' red wha?

;D

i want next week to come.

NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW.

gah.

in other news, i hate facebook. it makes me into a creepy stalker. the end.

someone needs to serenade me asap...
You're every song
And I sing along
Cause you're my everything.

i...would give anything to hug her one last time.

The most amazing, beautiful dog died in my arms tonight at 6:30 pm.
She has been in my life since I was six.
She has been through so much, from cancer to pancreatitis to other sicknesses to being caught in an animal trap.
Anyone that was lucky enough to know her would say that she was the friendliest dog in the world.

Rest In Peace Bailey. No other dog has or will even come close to you. I'm going to miss you more than you will ever know <3

i feel sick to my stomach.

i hope tomorrow never comes.

bailey is being put down on monday.

there's no avoiding it this time.